March 31m 2918 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.  And yes I hate me.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - sound recording.

See you tomorrow.

March 30, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.  Hey, if it's every Friday, I can live with that.

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work - nothing, but for the first time in a while, it bugs me.

Overall - illness and depression, can't beat that combo.  I'm just happy that it wasn't--more.  Wanted to be.

See you tomorrow-ish.

March 29, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - no.  Very tempted, though.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - nothing.  I'm not worried, really, because the headaches make it impossible to think of creative things.  Or at least do them.

Overall - cold seems to be going, but the headaches are getting more frequent.  Still too ill to be cognizant of the depression.

See you tomorrow.

March 28, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - no.  Very, very tempted.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - seem to be sliding out of the main illness, but the sinus pain is still around and very intense.

See you tomorrow.

March 27, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - feel as if the illness might be winding down.  Maybe.

See you tomorrow.

March 26, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - no.  Too damned ill.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - nothing.  Too ill and too painful.  Backup time.

Overall - very depressed about illness and pains.

See you tomorrow.

March 25, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - no.  Tempted, really tempted, but resisted.  Thanks, illness!

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - very little.  Some sound work on the new project, and a new background for some future possibility.

Overall - very ill, still.  Eye pain comes and goes.

See you tomorrow.

March 24, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - no.  How about that?  In fairness, the illness has roared back, so drinking is unthinkable.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - nothing really.  Again, illness preempts a lot of hard thinking.

Overall - too sick to be depressed, though the ache behind my eye is worrying.

See you tomorrow.

March 23, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.  Yeah, you knew it couldn't last, and it didn't.

Paid work - a good day, and a full one.

Creative work - some work on the New Project, fixing bits, preparing bits, transferring possible sound files, and so on.  Not a bad day.

Overall - still to sick to reflect on my current emotional state. 

See you tomorrow.

March 22, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - no.  Tempted, but pushed it aside.

Paid work - a little less than a full day, trying to kick this illness.

Creative work - some work on the New Project, not much, but a little.

Overall - again, too ill to be too depressed.

See you tomorrow.

March 21, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - no.  Only advantage of illness I guess.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some sound adaptation for the project.  Plus, I rendered and imported the project (the New Project) and it turns out to have a length of ... 15 seconds.  Oops.  I already have some ideas to lengthen it a bit more.

Overall - too ill to be very depressed.  Another advantage I guess.

See you tomorrow.

March 20, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - no.  Tempted, but too ill from various factors.

Paid work - slightly shorter than normal (see: illness) but a good one.

Creative work - some sound work.  Lots of sleeping interfered with anything more substantial.

Overall - too sick to be concerned about much.

See you tomorrow.

March 19, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - no.  Don't ask me to explain.  Being ill might have something to do with it, but that didn't stop me on the weekend.

Paid work - a full day.  Pretty slow one, but that's okay.

Creative work - I think I've finished the animation on the New Project.  Want to let it sit for a while first, and of course I still have to add sound.

Overall - too sick to dwell on much.

See you tomorrow.

March 18, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes of course.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - pretty much finished the video portion of the new project.  Just need to add insects.

Overall - mostly ill, but (hacking cough) seems to be lessening (hacking cough).  Or I'm fooling myself.

See you tomorrow.

March 17, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - a bunch of stuff on the new project.

Overall - sick as a dog, things don't seem to be getting better.

See you later today.

March 16, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - ayup.

Paid work - only half a day.  Ill with the flu or some damned thing.  Still did good work.

Creative work - lots of work on the new project, and I actually like what I've done. 

Overall - tinnitus bugs me, lack of money bugs me...it's all closing in.

See you tomorrow unless I get lucky.

March 15, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yeah.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - completely redoing the New Project.  Also tweaked the Old Project.  Gotta keep things...things.

Overall - heater got fixed, feel ill, depressed.

See you tomorrow.

March 14, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a good day.

Creative work - a lot of good stuff on the new project, and some thinking on the old one.  Gotta get that done, after all.

Overall - feel ill, feel everything is failing.  Lots of sadness and depression.

See you tomorrow.

March 13, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.  Like you even have to ask.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some good stuff on the New project.

Overall - very depressed, but a good encounter with a random citizen was really nice.

See you tomorrow.

March 12, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - full day.

Creative work - quite a lot done, learned some things too.

Overall - mood is very black.

See you later today.

March 11, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes damn it.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - a bunch of stuff on the "New" project, which is becoming more work.  Okay, though.

Overall - despair.

See you tomorrow.

March 10, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - a lot on the new thing.

Overall - had a dream where I died.  It was awesome.

See you tomorrow.

March 9, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - alas yeah.

Paid work - yes, a good day.

Creative work - another good day, figuring things out.

Overall - very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

March 8, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - no, believe it or not.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - a lot of work on a different project.  Wanted to get a rest from The Project.

Overall - not drinking helps, still feel depressed.

See you tomorrow.

March 7, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some decent work.

Overall - very depressed.

See you later today.

March 6, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some decent work.

Overall - very depressed.

See you later today.

March 5, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, and a pretty good one.  More tomorrow.

Creative work - finally found the answer to the sound problem, and re-did several scenes.  Worked some on the next segment.  Overall, not bad.

Overall - depressed at my helplessness.  Depressed at fate.  Not seeing a future.

See you tomorrow.

March 4, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, reluctantly, but still yes.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - one sequence in The Project.  After 6 tries!

Overall - okay.  Not great.  Lots of frustration.  Little progress.

See you tomorrow.

March 3, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - nothing today.  Not worried.

Overall - very depressed. 

See you tomorrow.

March 2, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.  We all knew it couldn't last.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some detail work, nothing much, but something.

Overall - don't ask.

See you tomorrow.

March 1, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - no.  Yeah, this can't last.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - just a bit, but that's okay.  Update:  actually did some painting.

Overall - not too terrible but very cautious.

See you tomorrow.