June 21, 2026 (Sunday)

 Drinking (Yes/No) No (99/73)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - drew the various front views of the droids, and imported them.  Started work on the dome interior.

In the interim - removed the drives from the Beelink, and it booted into a normal Windows setup...which froze at the "choose PIN" step.  For several hours, until I stopped it.  Went for the long walk, and has Asia Cafe's kung pao chicken.  Quite good, though a lot.  Update: got the Beelink set up with Windows, finally.  Now doing updates, which will probably break it...

Overall - tired a lot, though not ill, thankfully.  The idea that I keep yessing because of boredom seems to have merit.  Glad to get two Nos in a row.  Maybe that's the way to keep the goal reasonable...two day stretches.

See you tomorrow.

June 20, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (99/72)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work -  imported the grapplers into the project and converted them, but did not animate them.  Extended the frame count and moved all the borders.  Then, nothing else.

In the interim - got the earbuds to work, sort of.  Seem to be mono only?

Overall - ill and tired all day, managed a long walk.  Glad to get a No.

See you tomorrow.

June 19, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (99/71)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - working on the grappler rear-views.

In the interim - got the ColorGuard thing mailed off.  Bought a remote from Best Buy which worked with the TV--yay!  Went on a long walk, but barely ate anything.

Overall - ill and tired most of the day, probably the same story tomorrow.  Depressing.

See you tomorrow.

June 18, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (98/71)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - futzed around with the dome rising scene.  

In the interim - testing the drone, was able to get connected through the phone and the iPad.  The control pad makes the drone beep, so I guess that means they're talking.  No actual flights yet.  Also, managed to collect the ColorGuard specimen.  That is an incredibly uncomfortable experience.

Overall - ill and tired all day, barely left the house, but still got a Yes.  Hope dims.

See you tomorrow.

June 17, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (97/71)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some shadow work on the rising dome.  Making droplets.  Adding the waves and droplets and it looks pretty good.  

In the interim - sick in the morning, and expecting to be sick tomorrow.  Actually ate (at Subway).  Again, tired all day, though that seems to be no matter whether Yes or No.

Overall - oh boy.  Here we go again.

See you tomorrow.

June 16, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (96/71)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - working on the "splash" bits.

In the interim - mailed the check to continue the dental benefits.  Got the replacement drivers license today; not at all irked that I could have used it earlier.  Really, not being sarcastic.  It's nice to have paperwork in order.  Got a Yes anyway.

Overall - slept a lot, brief walk, slept some more, barely ate.  No caffeine today for some reason.

See you tomorrow.

June 15, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (95/71)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - quite a bit of work on the dome rising.  Easier than I thought.  A couple of tweaks and maybe an overhead shot would work well.  Worked on some water effects images.

In the interim - well, my printer printed a test page last night, and apparently that was the last gasp.  Took Benefits stuff to OfficeMax and they printed them.  Also, managed to get Medicare added to my login.gov ID.  What a massive process.  Submitted the Medicare D application.  Tomorrow I'll mail the COBRA letter.

Overall - still lots tired, but otherwise it's nice to have a productive day.  Went to Qdoba for the first time in a while; still very good.

See you tomorrow.

June 14, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (95/70)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - did more work on the bug viewing the dome beginning to rise.  Then moved to the view as the actual scene.

In the interim - finally got a No.  Nice phone call, though short--suddenly felt ill.  Other than taking the trash out, didn't leave the house.

Overall - so glad to get a No.  

See you tomorrow.

June 13, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (95/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - the bug turns to look at the dome.  Not bad.

In the interim - not a lot done today.  Got the checks, so prepped the mail for continuing Dental Coverage.  And failed to disconnect "drinking" from "work," so who knows.  Who knows.

Overall - I doubt I'll see the year old the way things are going.

See you tomorrow.

June 12, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (94/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - worked on the timing of the project so far, and made a few trims.  Animated the bug turning off the force shield.  

In the interim - well, wasted most of the day, and expect to do so tomorrow too.  The damned Yesses.  Bought a birthday present--a drone.  Why not?

Overall - I think the drinking issue might be that when I've been drinking and work on the projects, the drinking becomes part of the chain.  And I have to drink to re-enter the right state.  If I can sever that, I might be able to get out of this loop.  Maybe.

See you tomorrow.

June 11, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (93/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - rendered what we have so far.  

In the interim - again, ill and tired.  At least went for a walk.  Got a notice about an Rx refill--over $1000!  Got to look into Medicare D.  In the meantime, I can't afford that,

Overall - tomorrow I am older.

See you tomorrow.

June 10, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (92/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - Working on the details for the worker at the shore.  Otherwise...avoiding the big stuff.  But the big stuff isn't that big now.  Got the rest of the small detail stuff done and imported.  Now, I need to tackle the rising dome.

In the interim - as expected, stayed in all day, feeling ill and exhausted.  But still did the Yes.

Overall - oh boy.  Tomorrow should be fun.  Not.

See you tomorrow.

June 9, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (91/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - did some work on the droids scene, and it looks good.  Will check again later.  Later: still looks good.  Added another beam and rendered.  Converted that and the "inside bug" to video and added to Vegas.  Worked on the overhead view, and changed it a bit.  Looks more interesting.  Also made two versions of cambug view and cambug side, both without any lighting effects.  I can use those as pacing blocks.  Set those into Vegas and things look good.  Started on the "face fall off" bit.  This took more work than I thought.  I should really get a good naming convention.

In the interim - went on the short walk near B&N and ate at the Mexican place.  It was good, not great.  And of course more resting.

Overall - and we have another Yes.  Damn it.

See you tomorrow.

June 8, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (90/69)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finished and converted the worker and camera bit, and imported into Vegas,  Started on the droids in the sky.  After that, we need yellow retracting, arm moving out of the way, face falling off, and dome rising out of the water.  Update: tweaked the bug bit and it looks better.

In the interim - very tired all day, as usual.  Did the Old Man Thing where I couldn't find my glasses and they were on top of my head.

Overall - could have been worse, I guess.  At least kept the spending down.  And got another No.

See you tomorrow.

June 7, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (90/68)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some tweaking on the animations,

In the interim - barely left the house, ill and tired all day

Overall - try to stop drinking.  And I can't find the Beelink manual.

See you tomorrow.

June 6, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (90/67)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some good detail work on the prop bits from the various angles.

In the interim - well, a good day until the Yes.

Overall - well, there was Saturday.  Hopefully Sunday won't be filled with illness.  Yeah right.

See you tomorrow.

June 5, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (89/67)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - worked on the red lightning.

In the interim - sick all day, barely left the house.

Overall - kind of surprised I didn't get another Yes.

See you tomorrow.

June 4, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (89/66)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - worked on the bug zap bit.  Running into some issues, somehow.

In the interim - finally got the Beelink NAS set up, after...eight months?  Oh well.  Took a long time to find the drives for it, which upset me more than it should.  Triggered the Yes.  Then I found them, but it was--too late!  

Overall - hopefully won't be too sick tomorrow but that's tomorrow.

See you tomorrow.

June 3, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (88/66)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work -  nothing.

In the interim - very ill and tired because of last night.  Didn't leave the house.

Overall - gotta stop those Yesses.  On the plus side, an Amazon delivery showed up...a week after they said it did.

See you tomorrow.

June 2, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (88/65)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - decided to work on the big dome, so made a big version.  

In the interim - did some minor stuff around the apt--cleaning, sorting.  Finally took the case off the NAS, now just need to find the drives.  Know I have them somewhere.  Also, the cat accepted the new box.

Overall - tired a lot, not much energy.  The Yes popped up out of nowhere.

See you tomorrow.

June 1, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (87/65)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - added and animated the eroding head effects.  Looks good.  Just need lightning.

In the interim - went to the DL office to renew my driver's license.  Thought it would take some time, but I was in and out in a few minutes.  Helped a gentleman put his handicap-scooter-thing into his car.  Paid most of the month's bills.  Then slept.  A lot.

Overall - Very tired today.  Small things irritated me more than they should.

See you tomorrow.

May 31, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (87/64)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - got the heads imported and converted.  Still need to tweak a few bits but otherwise this incredibly difficult bit seems done.  Oh, and the lightening.  Nothing else done today.

In the interim - did my first Senile Old Man thing--took the trash out without putting on shorts.  Fortunately my boxers looked enough like pants.  Also fortunately, no one was outside at the time.  Whew.

Overall - barely left the house.  Barely left the couch.  But got a No.

See you tomorrow.

May 30, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (87/63)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finished the degraded heads, and imported them.

In the interim - started the month-end backup process.  

Overall - because of the Yes, prepared myself to be really ill the next day.  And I was.  

See you tomorrow.

May 29, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (86/63)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some work on the stages of the eroded heads.  Easier than I thought it would be, really.

In the interim - fixed the Ollo card, and got a haircut after deciding on that very late last night.  Not sure where the Yes came from, maybe Friday's brow.

Overall - mostly tired and did a lot of sleeping.  Then the Yes showed up.

See you tomorrow.

May 28, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (85/63)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - well, I aminated the fluid being used up.  And got in an appropriate torso.  So, I still have to erode the head, and add lightening.  I had the idea to remove the yellow overall and use Vegas to place that, as the yellow makes it too hard to see details.  Update:  I think I have a good eroded forward face.  Now to duplicate that on the side head and work backwards from there.

In the interim - finally applied for the State's retirement payout.  

Overall - another day very tired.  But at least got another No.

See you tomorrow.

May 27, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (85/62)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - got a working animation of the arms, now working on the "fluid" bit.  After that comes the head.

In the interim - thought I might be dying when I work up this morning.  Feeling gradually faded, and obviously I didn't, but I realized I need to work on more NOs.  Got one tonight, and I was kind of mad about it.  

Overall - a very, very down day.

See you tomorrow.

May 26, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (85/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - more arm animation.

In the interim - didn't feel very sick, and actually ate a fairly healthy amount.  So there's that.

Overall - these Yesses are becoming too prevalent.

See you tomorrow.

May 25, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (84/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - reworking a lot of the animation.  Too much of the perfectionist.

In the interim - sleeping, tired, low-level ill.

Overall - another mostly wasted day.

See you tomorrow.

May 24, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (83/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some won on the sideways view of the worker.  Kind of getting there, but wow would this be easier in Blender or something.

In the interim - great phone call.  Otherwise a wasted day.

Overall - rained a lot.  Got a book from Amazon, nice.  Worried because they said they'd delivered it to the "front desk."  What?

See you tomorrow.

May 23, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (82/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - decided to rework the entire "prop" sequence.  I did this because I am dumb.

In the interim - tired all day, weak.  But still drank.  Yikes.

Overall - foot feels weird, like it has a fracture or something.

See you tomorrow.

May 22, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (81/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some more animation and design stuff, getting things into place before having to handle the head disintegration.  Not exactly wheel spinning but close.

In the interim - went for a brief walk.  Actually ate a bit at Subway.

Overall - mostly ill and tired, so mostly a wasted day.  As expected.  Hope tomorrow isn't the same.

See you tomorrow.

May 21, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (80/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - more work on raising the prop.  Got the hands and wrists done, need to work on the arms, and then of course attaching them to the body so it all works.  Need to work on the head damage and fluid drain too.  Update- did the arms.  The one on screen right looks a bit odd but so far it works.  Next, the damage stuff.

Update 2: worked on getting the damage things in order, and did a lot on the chest.

In the interim - more tiredness.  Walked a bit.  Have eaten very little eaten lately.

Overall - pretty sure the Yes was inevitable.

See you tomorrow.

May 20, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (79/61)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some work on "lifting the lever."  Good progress so far.

In the interim - more sleeping and such.  Barely ate at all today.

Overall - really had to fight for that No.  

See you tomorrow.

May 19, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (79/60)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - working on the Worker turning around.  I've got it mostly, but there are things that are off about it.  Decided on a different approach, and it seems to be coming along.

In the interim - finally made the Sam's Club run, sent off my dental insurance form, and got an ID for the TN retirement account.  Nice to make some progress on this stuff.

Overall - very tired all day but otherwise could use more days like this.

See you tomorrow.

May 18, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (79/59)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - nothing.

In the interim - barely left the house.  Finally filled out the insurance paperwork, will take that to be scanned tomorrow.

Overall - another day of exhaustion.  At least I ate something, and got a No.

See you tomorrow.

May 17, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (79/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - a bit of work on the prop scene.  Also managed to write up the latest dream bits.  Part two is totally forgotten, oh well.

In the interim - tired a lot, though not very ill--surprising.  Tomorrow I've got to make a Sam's run.

Overall - I've had worse Sundays I suppose.

See you tomorrow.

May 16, 2026 (Saturday)

 Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (78/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - more installation on the new desktop.

In the interim - went for the usual walk.  Watched "The Dark Half" which was pretty good though kind of anonymous.

Overall - not terribly ill, but very tired and exhausted all day.  

See you tomorrow.

May 15, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (77/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - more work on the prop stuff.  Trying to get Adobe on the new PC but running into issues.

In the interim - decided to take the Naltrexone in the morning from now on, to see if that helps.  Results of the EEG were normal.

Overall - very exhausted all day.

See you later today.

May 14, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (76/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finished the "grab rod" bit, and started on the "turn rod" bit.

In the interim - as of the 13th, got the heart test tomorrow.  Will update as we learn more.  Update: will learn later.  Interesting sounds.  I jokingly asked for a CD.  Took the checks to the bank, and they put a hold on the IRS one.  Oh well.

Overall - sick and ill but still got a Yes.

See you tomorrow. 

May 13, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (75/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - working on "grab the prop" bit.

In the interim - met a lot of dogs on the walk today.  And...got the tax check!  Yay!

Overall - slept badly again last night, though largely due to indigestion.  Exhausted all day.  And got a Yes, darn it.

See you tomorrow. 

May 12, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (74/58)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - animated the trucks leaving--finally got the legs so they look OK.  Animated the droids leaving as well.  Looked at the overhead-cloud sequence and it looks good.  Want to look at it again before I deem it finished.  Update: finished the cloud sequence and added it, then another overhead with the trucks missing.  Getting closer.

In the interim - tried a Mexican restaurant I hadn't been to before.  It was mediocre.  Otherwise did a lot of resting.  

Overall - not a bad day overall.  Any day with a No has that going for it. 

See you tomorrow. 

May 11, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (74/57)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - testing animation on the legs.

In the interim - bought cat litter and a different kind of food.  Cat actually ate some of it.

Overall - slept really badly last night, so very tired all day.  Didn't do much during the day.  Got another No so that's good.

See you tomorrow. 

May 10, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (74/56)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - redid yesterday's animation because it was terrible.  Have to figure out legs motion for a tripod.  Unless I can add a fourth leg.  

In the interim - went for the usual walk.  Mostly just tired today.  SO glad to finally get a No.

Overall - not too bad.

See you tomorrow. 

May 9, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (74/55)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some animation, and a nice Blender class.

In the interim - barely moved today.  Still Yes. 

Overall - how do I get out of this except through death.

See you tomorrow. 

May 8, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (73/55)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some truck animation.  

In the interim - went for a walk, otherwise a wasted day.  Like most of them.

Overall - miserable, sick, exhausted.  But still got a Yes.  What the Hell.

See you tomorrow. 

May 7, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (72/55)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some design work on the trucks, and assembled in Flash.  And some ideas about what to do with the trucks.

In the interim - not a lot done today.  Short walk.  Neighbor's sign fell off, I thought it was a delivery from someone who didn't want to do deliveries.

Overall - ill and tired and still got a Yes.  Damn it.

See you tomorrow. 

May 6, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (71/55)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - "How to Draw a Cat" done and sent. Work on some more animation stuff.  Getting close.

In the interim - managed to get up early today and did all the morning things in the morning, instead of mid afternoon.  Nice walk and overall nice day.

Overall - then that Yes hit.  Damn it.

See you tomorrow. 

May 5, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (70/55)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - work on the shield animation.

In the interim - mostly wasted day.

Overall - that No was hard won.

See you tomorrow. 

May 4, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (70/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some nice animation bits.  Getting along.

In the interim - nothing much, really.  Went for a long walk.  Didn't help.

Overall - feel so much despair these days.  Not sure why that is, but I don't like it.

See you tomorrow. 

May 3, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (69/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - working on the bug's arm with the shield control.

In the interim - great phone call.  Otherwise not much, too weak to do much.  Set up the new desktop in first steps.  Installed Vivaldi and upgraded from Home to Pro.  More tomorrow I'm sure.

Overall - hate the Yes but what can you do.  No appetite.

See you tomorrow. 

May 2, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (68/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some animation.  Getting closer.

In the interim - nice Blender tutorial.

Overall - tired and ill and out of sorts all day.  So naturally I got a Yes.

See you tomorrow. 

May 1, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (67/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - nothing much.  Backup day.  I'd forgotten all about that.  Did some nice animation stuff anyway.

In the interim - didn't do much else.  Very ill.  Managed a walk.

Overall - the Yes really clobbered me.

See you tomorrow. 

April 30, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (66/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some more animation with the prop glow.  

In the interim - went to the doctor for the Medicare appointment, looks like all went well though I won't know for sure until next week.  Looked up Medicare D and got confused.  Then went and voted, and then went for a walk.  Overall not a bad day.  

Overall - as usual, slept poorly.  Dreamt I was helping boat traffic deal with glue from a giant squid.  And the Yes seemed inevitable.

See you tomorrow. 

April 29, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (65/54)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - did some work on the sideways torso and imported it into Flash.

In the interim - did nothing all day.  Got the mail and that was it.

Overall - another day gone.  Tired, sleeping, no energy.

See you tomorrow. 

April 28, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (65/53)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some animation fixes, and some work on the prop and its glows.

In the interim - overall a decent day, tired all the time.  Figured out some election stuff.  

Overall - Otherwise routine.

See you tomorrow. 

April 27, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (64/53)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finished the rod bit part one.  Kind of surprising how nice it looks.

In the interim - got another No, which is nice.  Otherwise typical Monday.

Overall - really tired all day.  And then caffeine at night.  Need to turn that around.

See you tomorrow. 

April 26, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (64/52)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some animation details.  Not a lot.

In the interim - lots of sleeping.  No phone call this week.

Overall - very tired. Managed a walk.  Glad to get a No finally.

See you tomorrow. 

April 25, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (64/51)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - a bit of animation coordination.  Looks better than before.

In the interim - nice tutorial about Blender.  Good info.

Overall - depressed and down, didn't really leave the house.

See you tomorrow. 

April 24, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (63/51)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - a lot of animation on the "worker turns around" bit.  Still needs work.  Especially since I realized while lying in bed that the arms are all wrong!  So I did a bunch of fixing on that and have made some good progress.

In the interim - Well, that was a Friday.  Bought a new desktop PC.  Hope it's good.

Overall - got very little sleep as usual...also very ill when I got out of bed.  What's the difference I ask.

See you tomorrow. 

April 23, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (62/51)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finally fixed the bit with the droids opening the cambug.  Moral of the story: always watch the edges.

In the interim - not much else today.  Restless and tired as noted below.

Overall - very tired, no energy, but can't really rest.  Glad to get a No.

See you tomorrow.

April 22, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (62/50)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - nothing much.

In the interim - ill most of the day.

Overall - ill but still drank.  Sounds like my epitaph.

See you tomorrow.

April 21, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (61/50)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some attempts at fixing the missing gradient.  Vegas 23 is terrible, and Vegas 26 seems to be a no go.  Getting some work done but it is slow.

In the interim - felt OK today, so not sure why the Yes came about.  

Overall - other than the Yes, could use a few more days like this.

See you tomorrow.

April 20, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (60/50)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some animation, mostly on a "turning" scene.

In the interim - not much sleep last night, thanks to cat and dreams.

Overall - felt like a weight had been lifted.  I think I was having panic/anxiety issues over going to a crowded public event, and now that it's done I feel better.  Still depressed though.

See you tomorrow.

April 19, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) No (60/49)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - nothing.

In the interim - saw Star Trek II with William Shatner on stage.  A fun evening.

Overall - almost panic attack over driving downtown.  Glad I did it though.  Only reason for the No is all the stores are closed.

See you tomorrow.

April 18, 2026 (Saturday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (60/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - created new Vegas project with the rendered video.  Did some work on animating the "insert rod" bit.  Getting there.

In the interim - I'm so tired of drinking.  Seeing William Shatner tomorrow, and I don't know why that frightens me.  And more drunken Twitter comments.

Overall - very down and tired today.  

See you tomorrow.

April 17, 2026 (Friday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (59/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some work on the "rod insertion" bit.

In the interim - ill in the morning, tired all day, barely ate.  What a life.

Overall - well, that was a Friday.  Nice lady at Wal-Mart pharmacy.  

See you tomorrow.

April 16, 2026 (Thursday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (58/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - work on the hands and the prop.

In the interim - paid a couple of bills.  Drove out to Turkey Creek and the car performed flawlessly.  

Overall - so, ten days between No and Yes.  At least I wasn't ill this morning, just exhausted all day.

See you tomorrow.

April 15, 2026 (Wednesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (57/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some work on the "insert the rod" bit.  Got some good images.  

In the interim - went for a much longer walk than I'd anticipated.  It was fun though tiring.  Picked up an orange thing on the way...it was nothing, but there was no trash can for miles.  Almost kept it as a reminder against futility, but threw it away any way.

Overall - last of the paychecks; it was nice.  Also SSA though smaller than usual.  It's OK. 

See you tomorrow.

April 14, 2026 (Tuesday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (56/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - some work on the cambug.

In the interim - nothing much today.  Very depressed.

Overall - as seen above, very depressed.  But not ill.  So there's that.

See you tomorrow.

April 13, 2026 (Monday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (55/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - started on the next bits.  Did some work on the sideways cambot.  Also watched the "film so far" and it looks good.

In the interim - it was a Monday.  Could have been worse.

Overall - again didn't feel ill today.

See you tomorrow.

April 12, 2026 (Sunday)

Drinking (Yes/No) Yes (54/48)

Paid work - Retired.

Creative work - finished the cambug "gag" bit and finished the internal view.  That should be everything up to now, with no need for "bridging" bits.  Rendered the current project to video to check on timing, etc.  And started on the insertion bit.

In the interim - paid some bills I didn't need to pay.

Overall - despite last night's Yes, I was not ill at all this morning.  Very odd.  And another Yes tonight.

See you tomorrow.