July 31, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some good transition stuff.  Building up.

Overall - sadness everywhere.  A visit there, very depressing.

See you tomorrow.

July 30, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, though feels less toxic than yesterday.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - getting those transitions in.

Overall - I still feel horrible, but less horrible, because hope is no longer a factor.

See you tomorrow.

July 29, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, too much.

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some bits and things.

Overall - bleak.

See you tonight.

July 28, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - quite a bit.

Overall - very depressed, very dark.

See you tonight.

July 27, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, though a slow one.  And a hit on the paycheck.

Creative work - some scenes, some sound work...slowly getting there.

Overall - very, very depressed and hopeless.

See you later tonight.

July 26, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.  Not sure what you expected.

Paid work - a decent day. 

Creative work - more work on Chapter Four.

Overall - some positive plans, some negative contacts, some overall blech.

See you tomorrow.

July 25, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, semi-slow.  But that's okay.

Creative work - nothing much.  Hunting down some sound and image stuff for future work.

Overall - I don't know how to reconcile my deteriorating life with my oncoming death.

See you tomorrow. 

July 24, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - life just gets worse and worse.

See you tomorrow.  Unless I die.

July 23, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work -  a very busy day.

Creative work - some, but not much.

Overall - some good financial news, though it doesn't bear reflection.  Sinking in darkness.

See you tomorrow.

July 22, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, though medium.

Paid work - Sunday so no. 

Creative work - more than I thought.

Overall - very depressing day, very despairing of life.

See you tomorrow.

July 21, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.  Thought I wouldn't need it after yesterday, but yesterday called in.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.  Sold some stuff, though.

Creative work - some good work.

Overall - fallout from yesterday won't let me be.

See you tomorrow.

July 20, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a pretty good day.

Creative work - some work on transitions and such.

Overall - well, that relationship was due to crash.

See you later today.

July 19, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, but one with a bit of work.  Overall okay.

Creative work - some good work.

Overall - wow, am I a terrible person.  I need to sit back and calm down, every time.

See you tomorrow.

July 18, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a dull day at real work, and a profitable day at old work.  Overall, okay.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - really feel like I am winding down.  I'm seeing many who died at my age.

See you tomorrow.

July 17, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes, but not as much.  Still, yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some on chapter four.

Overall - I'm really in despair.

See you later today.

July 16, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.  What, that's a surprise?

Paid work - a full day, though some sadness. 

Creative work - exported some things to Vegas and started a new project.  Lots of sound editing.  Dull, but worthwhile.

Overall - I just want it to be over.  Everything is leaving.

See you tomorrow. 

July 15, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, funny how that happens no matter what.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - despite the umbrella of depression covering everything, I did some stuff on chapter 4.

Overall - this is intolerable, and I suspect won't be tolerated much longer.  Good friend has a chance to have a good job elsewhere, and I wish her the best.  F me.

See you tomorrow.

July 14, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - nothing really.

Overall - catastrophe.

See you later today

July 13, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, though a slow one.  Hungover and all that.

Creative work - some interesting stuff on Chapter Four. 

Overall - every step is down.  Some nice times with a good friend.  Otherwise it's all dark.

See you tomorrow.

July 12, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, though somewhat worrisome.

Creative work - lots of stuff done.

Overall - a friend had some good news.

See you tomorrow.

July 11, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - quite a bit done on what will hopefully be the last chapter.

Overall - not happy.

See you later tonight.

July 10, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes, but different.  Kind of.

Paid work - a full day, though a slow one.

Creative work - a bunch of good animation and design on what, I hope, will be the final Hence chapter.

Overall - feeling bad for a friend, feeling bad for no future.

See you tomorrow.

July 9, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, though less than usual.

Paid work - a full day, in a collapsing theatre.

Creative work - a heck of a lot done.  And some good ideas.

Overall - sad.  Very sad.

See you tomorrow.

July 8, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - actually quite a bit.

Overall - black day overall.  Ill for most of it.

See you tomorrow.

July 7, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - a bit, though not much.

Overall - a very good day.  No, no explanation.  No jinxing.

See you tomorrow.

July 6, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - just a bit, an unfelt bit.  Oh well.

Overall - glad a friend is doing better.  That's all I have.

Tomorrow threatens.

July 5, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a bit.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - rescued a damsel in distress, otherwise nothing.

See you tomorrow.

July 4, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - state holiday so no.

Creative work - only a little.

Overall - it closes in.

See you tomorrow.

July 3, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some good stuff, so there.

Overall - I dread life, and tomorrow

See you then.

July 2, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a full day, and a pretty tiring one.

Creative work - nothing today. 

Overall - don't feel well.

See you tomorrow.

July 1. 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.  I hope it's just residual, because I felt ill all day from yesterday's indulgence.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - no.  Did a lot of reading but no drawing.

Overall - dark clouds gather.

See you tomorrow.