Oct 30, 2018 (Tues)

(Internet service was down Monday and Tuesday)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - yes

Creative work - yes

Overall - kind of blech.

See you later in the week.

Oct 29, 2018 (Mon)

(Internet service was down Monday and Tuesday)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - yes

Creative work - yes

Overall - feel ill most of the time.

See you later this week.

Oct 28, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - no.

Creative work - did some good stuff on the friend project.

Overall - despite all the evidence, still thinking of her as a "friend."  Still hurting, still missing, all that.  With luck, that ends tonight.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 27, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday so no.  As mentioned, now that I'm full time this may become irrelevant.

Creative work - power was off most of the day, but I'm about to start on the friend project.

Overall - met with some folks for a train ride, and drinks afterward.  Good company.  Somehow got really pissed off back at the apt.  Not sure why.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 26, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day, though mostly a slow dull one.

Creative work - more slogging on the friend project.  Need to be done with this.

Overall - angry and depressed.  But looking forward to tomorrow.

See you then.

Oct 25, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.  Though, now that I'm full time, that may not need to be noted.

Creative work - some stuff on the friend project.

Overall - made dinner tonight, and enjoyed it.  Perhaps progress; only tomorrow can smash that.

See you then.

Oct 24, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.  A bit freaked.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some stuff solved on the friend project.

Overall - not at all happy today, things seem headed badly.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 23, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.  And yes, worried.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some friend project work, getting details down.

Overall - feel empty.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 22, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, though weirdly not worried.

Paid work - a good full day.

Creative work - some cat stuff, hand stuff, for the friend project.

Overall - learned some things I suspected.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 21, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, and yes, worried.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - progress on the friend thing.

Overall - not a good day.  Pissed off and irked.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 20, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.  A bit worried now.

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - some work on the friend project.

Overall - a "meh" day.  Weird phone call.

See you later today.

Oct 19, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes, though still not worried.  Much.

Paid work - a full day, less busy than I'd like but still good.

Creative work - some work on the friend project.

Overall - VM about Knoxville services.  Things...and stuff.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 18, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes, but it was a good run.

Paid work - full day, learned some things, mad about others.

Creative work - some good stuff, here and there, on the friend project.

Overall - more anger, more rage, but met a new friend, so some good.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 17, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some work on the friend thing.

Overall - an okay day, until thought and technology made me angry.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 16, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a busy day.

Creative work - some on the friend project.

Overall, an okay day.  Neither good nor bad.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 15, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a busy day.

Creative work - some decent work on the friend project.

Overall - not a bad day, not a good one either, but okay.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 14, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff on the friend project.

Overall - behind on bills, but overall...not terrible.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 13, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - revived the friend project and did quite a bit of work.

Overall - not a bad day, still a lot of bad thoughts.

Oct 12, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - an insight into the relationship my friend and I had.  Interesting.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 11, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full, busy day.  Plus!  Health insurance maybe.

Creative work - some nice stuff on a project that could have weirded me out, but doesn't.

Overall - signing up for benefits felt great, but it honestly isn't that much overall.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 10, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - a full, busy day

Creative work - a bit of work on the new project, some encouraging, some hopefully only seen for a frame or two

Overall - I'm out of resources and everyone has abandoned me.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 9, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yep.

Paid work - a full day

Creative work - some good stuff based on a good suggestion.

Overall - still missing her way too much.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 8, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - first full day of full-time work.  Nice busy day.

Creative work - some detail work on the UFO stuff.

Overall - miss her.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 7, 2018 (Sun)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - Sunday, so no, but some forms filled out.

Creative work - some stuff

Overall - missing her terribly, but getting...

See you tomorrow.

Oct 6, 2018 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.  Worked a bit on the paperwork for the new position.

Creative work - a little bit.  Ideas are starting to come. 

Overall - still miss her, still hurts.  Hard to think, impossible to dream.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 5, 2018 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a goodly amount.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - the usual.

See you tomorrow. 

Oct 4, 2018 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - yes, lots of travel, overall good.

Creative work - some stuff which doesn't have a natural flow

Overall - tired and despairing

See you tomorrow.

Oct 3, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - yes

Creative work - nothing much

Overall - tried to call and texted a friend, still very dark

See you later tonight.

Oct 2, 2018 (Tues)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - yes, a full day, though a slow one.

Creative work - just a little, but not bad.  First post-death work I've liked.

Overall -  I let everyone down, everyone lets me down.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 1, 2018 (Mon)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - full day though a slow one

Creative work - a little

Overall - very depressed, very despairing.

See you tomorrow.