Dec 31, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (259/106)

Paid work - state holiday, so no.  (New Year's Eve)

Creative work - some transitional stuff.

Overall - sad and miserable the whole day.  I may amend this later tonight.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 30, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (258/106)

Paid work - busy the first half, then very slow.

Creative work -some, not much

Overall - miserable.

See you later today.

Dec 29, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (257/106)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some, mostly backup day.

See you later Monday.

Dec 28, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (256/106)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - only a little, but things are moving along.

Overall - very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 27, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (255/106)

Paid work - very very slow day.  Worked on other things.

Creative work - some pretty good work.  Very, very good work.

Overall - Very depressed,

See you tomorrow.

Dec 26, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (254/106)

Paid work - very slow, very dull day.

Creative work - some pretty good stuff.

Overall - well, at least the PC seems to be behaving better.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 25, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (253/106)

Paid work - State holiday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff, and some help rendering.

Overall - ill most of the day.  Merry Christmas. 

See you tomorrow.

Dec 24, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (252/106).

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work -some good, very good stuff

Overall - Christmas Eve.  Oh...joy.  Cancelled party, oh cool.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 23, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (251/106).

Paid work - mostly slow, but some decent food.

Creative work - some good work on the project.  Getting some details into shape.

Overall - not a good sense of anything oncoming.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 22, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (250/106).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some pretty good work

Overall - everything is terrible.

See you tomorrow

Dec 21, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (249/106).

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - well, it was the worst day ever.  Death is coming close.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 20, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (248/106).  Well damn.

Paid work - an okay, if slow day.

Creative work - working on bubbling water.

Overall - happy to've not drunk last night, mad about tonight.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 19, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (247/106).

Paid work - slow day.  Not terrible.

Creative work - just a little.

Overall - not in a good place.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 18, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (247/105).

Paid work - fairly awful.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - very depressing.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 17, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (246/105).

Paid work - an okay if very noisy day.

Creative work - some good background stuff, probably more detailed than needed.

Overall - one--one!--bit of good luck.  Expect nothing else.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 16, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (245/105).

Paid work - mostly an irritating day.

Creative work - some good preliminary work.

Overall - sad and depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 15, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (244/105).

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some good work (that will probably remain unseen)

Overall - very, very depressing day.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 14, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (243/105).

Paid work, so no.  Bought some USB drives.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - nothing positive.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 13, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (242/105).

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - phasing stuff..  Yeah.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 12, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (241/105).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some good stuff.

Overall - sick and sad.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 11, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (240/105).

Paid work - a lot of driving.

Creative work - fixed some things.

Overall - does it matter?

See you tomorrow.

Dec 10, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (239/105).

Paid work - power outage, incorrect tickets, phone work...

Creative work - some good stuff.  And some good added stuff.

Overall - very sad.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (238/105).

Paid work - an okay day.  Dread but at least busy.

Creative work - some refinement (wheel spinning, almost)

Overall - blah blah blah.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 8, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (237/105).

Paid work - Sunday, so while I was waiting. no.

Creative work - transition stuff.

Overall - damn I hate life.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 7, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (236/105).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some good transitional stuff.

Overall - not happy about the drinking, but...

See you tomorrow.

Dec 6, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (235/105).  Oh well.

Paid work - slow but irritating day.

Creative work - some interesting stuff.

Overall - back and forth.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 5, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (234/105).

Paid work - not a bad day but a tiring one.

Creative work - not much

Overall - better not drinking.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 4, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - No (234/104).

Paid work - lots of driving.

Creative work - more work on the project.

Overall - not bad.  Always good to avoid drinking.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 3, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - No (234/103).

Paid work - lots of loading the van.  Otherwise okay.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - okay.  Not drinking helps.  Hope I can continue.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 2, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (234/102).

Paid work - lots of equipment moving.

Creative work - some good work on the project.

Overall - depressed.  Ticked off.

See you tomorrow.

Dec 1, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (233/102).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some good work on the project.

Overall - bored, depressed, poor.  The alcohol is bothering me.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 30, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (232/102).

Paid work - Saturday, so no. 

Creative work - some interesting work on the project.

Overall -bored, restless, ill at heart.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 29, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (231/102).

Paid work - State holiday, so no.

Creative work - backup day.  But managed some detail work.

Overall - not very well.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 28, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (230/102).

Paid work - state holiday (Thanksgiving), so no.  Same for tomorrow.

Creative work - some stuff.

Overall - it's all bad

See you tomorrow (or later today)

Nov 27, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (229/102).

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - some more Blender.  And some project work.

Overall - tinnitus is driving me crazy.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 26, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (228/102).

Paid work - mostly quiet, but then irritating.

Creative work - some Blender experiments, and some project work.

Overall - decent experiences today, who knows tomorrow.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 25, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (227/102).

Paid work - full day, lots of driving.

Creative work - some interesting animation work.

Overall - don't really feel I matter at all.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 24, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (226/102).

Paid work - Sunday, so this time, no.

Creative work - some peripheral stuff.  Not bad.

Overall - life sucks.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 23, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (225/102).

Paid work - Saturday, but 10:00-5:00 overtime hours.

Creative work - some good background stuff, some sound ideas.

Overall - nothing matters

See you tomorrow.

Nov 22, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (224/102).

Paid work - a very irritating day.

Creative work - some more background stuff.

Overall - I don't know and I don't care.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 21, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (223/102).

Paid work - long, dull day spiked with irritation.

Creative work - some possible work on part two.  Oh, cancelled the CC subscription.

Overall - nice meeting tonight.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 20, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (222/102).

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - some possible work on the "next" project.

Overall - I don't know.  Everything could end tomorrow.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 19, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - No (221/102).

Paid work - an okay day, kind of slow.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - irked by everything, okay (kind of) when not outside.  Anxious all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 18, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - No (221/101).

Paid work - typical day.  Okay.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - went to a presentation which was nothing much.  That was the evening.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 17, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (221/100).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some pretty good animation.  Some other art that may not be used.

Overall - feel ill and out of it.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 16, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (220/100).

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - still trying to figure out a direction.  But some interesting animation.

Overall - don't feel as bad as I should.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 15, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (219/100).

Paid work - slow sad day.

Creative work - some element work.

Overall - life is depressing and nothing else.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 14, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (218/100).

Paid work - irritating day.

Creative work - some animation.

Overall - anger and depression.  Doesn't look like there'll ever be good parts.

See you later today.

Nov 13, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (217/100).

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - some minor work.

Overall - not happy, not well.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 12, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (216/100).

Paid work - an okay day.  Slow mostly.

Creative work - some design work.  Still waiting on the damn drive.

Overall - missed a payment, though they were stupider than I.  I wanted the other card's date changed.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 11, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (215/100).

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work - storage drive still being checked, so I hate to interrupt that.  I'm getting some ideas, though.  And made some elements for part two.

Overall - very tired, kind of lost.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 10, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (214/100).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - working on drive fixes and such, so no.  No even backups.

Overall - feels very dark.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 9, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (213/100).

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - some minor stuff. 

Overall - sad about drinking, but there it is.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 8. 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - No (212/100).

Paid work - slow day, not terrible but tiring.

Creative work - posted the new video. Did some work on elements for the next part.

Overall - hard to say. 

See you tomorrow.

Nov 6, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (212/99).

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - still uploading, and I don't want to interfere with it.  24+ hours already.

Overall - could be worse.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 5, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - No (212/98).

Paid work - mostly slow day.

Creative work - fixed the aspect ratio problem and am now uploading.

Overall - kind of a slow blah day.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 5, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - No (212/97).

Paid work - a decent day.  Lots of driving.

Creative work - final audio mix on the project and rendering, only to find the framing was off.  Damn.

Overall - mostly blah, mostly dreading everything.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 4, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - No (212/96).

Paid work - an okay day, slow or frustrating.

Creative work - added titles and changed a bit of sound.  I think it's done, but I want to wait a day to let it gel before posting.

Overall - more anxieties.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 3, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - No (212/95).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work -  more sound work, and I think the project might actually be finished.  I'll give it a day or two to make sure.

Overall - kind of down most of the day.

See you tomorrow.

Nov 2, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (212/94).

 Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - lots of good sound work.

Overall - depressed

See you later today.

Nov 1, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (211/94).

Paid work - yeah, not bad.

Creative work - lots of sound work.  Good stuff.

Overall - want to die.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 31, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (210/94).

Paid work - decent day, depressing though.

Creative work - lots of sound work done on the project. Nice stuff.

Overall - can't care.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 30, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (209/94).  Damn.

Paid work - an okay day, lots of driving in the rain, but learned some things.

Creative work - a LOT of sound work on the never-ending project.  Very pleased.

Overall - I don't know.  Occasional good with overall bad.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 29, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (208/94).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some audio work.  Good, may not be usable.

Overall - spiraling out of control.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 28, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (207/94).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some recording, interesting stuff, not sure how useful.

Overall - not a terrible day.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 27,2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (206/94).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some recordings, mostly not very good.  Some audio work, also not very good.

Overall - meh.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 26, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (205/94).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some good sound recordings.

Overall - depressed about drinking but I fear cannot be stopped.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 25, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (204/94).

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - good sound work on the never-ending project.  Might actually complete!

Overall - nice to meet with friends, sad to be drinking.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 24, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (203/94).

Paid work - decent if somewhat slow day.

Creative work - finished the tiny project.

Overall - hard to tell.  Not very good, but not terrible.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 23, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (203/93).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - working on the stupid project.

Overall - some stuff that should be alarming, health-wise, but I don't care.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 22, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (202/93).

Paid work - an OK day.

Creative work - some graphic stuff for a minor thing, dreading sound work to come.

Overall - better than yesterday, at least there's that.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 21, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (201/93). DAMN IT.

Paid work - home sick.

Creative work - finished the animation and timing for the Big Project, and did some sound work as well.

Overall - pretty ill most of the day, disturbed about the drinking.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 20, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - No (200/93).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - finished up on the animation for the big project.  Now I have to edit, and of course there's sound to be added.

Overall - feel really sick.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 19, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (200/92).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - finished the animation bit.

Overall - ill most of the day,

See you tomorrow.

Oct 18, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (199/92).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some nice animation on the finale for part one.

Overall - I've had worse.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 17, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (198/92).

Paid work - decent day.  No real complaints.

Creative work - working on the finale of part one.

Overall - hard to say.  Miserable, but feel the end is coming soon, so who cares.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 16th, S019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (197/92).

Paid work - an okay day

Creative work - work on the long project.

Overall - argh, I don't know.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 15, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (196/92).

Paid work - mostly dull or irritating.

Creative work - searching for sound, and some graphics for a future project.  Like I need one.

Overall - very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 14, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (195/92).

Paid work - mostly irritating, waiting for others.

Creative work - trying to find sounds

Overall -  felt ill most of the day.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 13, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (194/92).

Paid work - Sun so no.

Creative work - nothing much.  Conceptualizing.

Overall - feel crappy like my life is wasting away.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 12, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (193/92).

Paid work - Sat so no.

Creative work - None.

Overall - argh

Oct 11, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (192/92).  Everyone knew it couldn't last.

Paid work - mostly frustrating, largely slow.

Creative work - some creature work.

Overall - sometimes you win, mostly you lose.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 10, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (191/92).

Paid work - mostly frustrating or dull.

Creative work - some stuff.

Overall - still not happy.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 9, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - No (191/91).

Paid work - very tiring day.

Creative work - some work on the small project, ideas for the big one.

Overall - feel unmoored to anything.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 8, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - No (191/90).

Paid work - mostly frustrating day.

Creative work - long backup failed, so doing a manual.

Overall - very irritated, very miserable.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 7, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - No (191/89).

Paid work - mostly irritating.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - very down.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 6, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (191/88).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - backup day.  Been about six weeks, so it was time.  Some PNG stuff.

Overall - mostly miserable.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 5, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (190/88).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - shadow work for the Project

Overall - depressed, sad, angry...whatever

See you tomorrow.

Oct 4, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (189/88).

Paid work - a half good/half bad day.

Creative work - some creature refinements, some spaceship refinements.

Overall - caught in fate's grip.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 3, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (188/88).

Paid work - mostly tiring.

Creative work - creature design, and some new plotting for the Difficult Project.

Overall - mostly exhausted.

Oct 2, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (187/88).

Paid work - pretty slow day, but no boss so much more relaxing.

Creative work -more creature design.

Overall - irritated and depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Oct 1, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (186/88).

Paid work - mostly irritating.

Creative work - finished the fog effects for the little project (mostly).  Working on creature design for a creature that will mostly be seen in silhouette.  New idea appears, I like it.

Overall - anger and depression.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 30, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (185/88).

Paid work - shirt day.  Mostly very dull.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - angry all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 29, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (184/88).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some good work on the little project.

Overall - tired of everything.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 28, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (183/88).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - bits here and there, trying to fix stuff.

Overall - Weekends are pretty deadly.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 27, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (182/88).  We all knew it couldn't last.

Paid work - very slow day, but a short one.

Creative work - some creature stuff.  Not bad.

Overall - not bad.  At least feel a bit rested.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 26, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - No (181/88).

Paid work - okay day, mostly bored and irritated.

Creative work - nothing.  Too tired.

Overall - very tired all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 25, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - No (181/87).

Paid work - decent day, tired and bored.

Creative work - bits of work on the little project.

Overall - as said before, not drinking helps.  But life sucks.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 24, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - No (181/86).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some good stuff on the mini-project.

Overall - tired all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 23, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - No (181/85).

Paid work - an okay day, got some stuff done, and some bad news.

Creative work - Some work on another project.

Overall - hell with it.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 22, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - No (181/84).

Paid work - Sun, so no.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - ill and out of sorts.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 21, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (181/83).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - nothing much.

Overall - good company at night, rest of the day frustrating and depressing.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 20, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (180/83).

Paid work - some okay, some dull.

Creative work - a little bit.

Overall - dark clouds.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 19, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (179/83).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some tweaking on the ending of part one.  Sound to follos.

Overall - nothing good.

See you tomorrow

Sept 18, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (178/83).

Paid work - an okay day, lots of driving.

Creative work - very minor stuff.

Overall - feel indifferent mostly.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 17, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (177/83).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some nice work.

Overall - ill and weary.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 16, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (176/83).

Paid work - a mostly irritating day.

Creative work - a little. Most of the transform sequence.

Overall - good conversation, but otherwise a nothing day.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 15, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (175/83).

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some good on the impossible project.

Overall - depression of course.  Also, never going to that restaurant again.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 14, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - Yes (174/83).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - a little bit.

Overall - ill most of the day.

See you later.

Sept 13, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (173/83).

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - a little.

Overall - loss of meaning.

See you later today.

Sept 12, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - Yes (172/83).

Paid work - an OK day.

Creative work - some good stuff on the impossible project.

Overall - no.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 11, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - Yes (171/83).

Paid work - mostly frustrating.

Creative work - some stuff.  Should work on something I can post soon!

Overall - depressed a lot.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 10, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (170/83).

Paid work - another day.

Creative work - some stuff.

Overall - despairing mostly.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 9, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - Yes (169/83).

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work -a little bit.

Overall - meh.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 8, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - Yes (168/83).

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff, plus another useless meeting.

Overall - sad about everything.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 7, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  Yes (167/83).

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some good creature work as well as filler.

Overall - worked for a while.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 6, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  No (166/83).

Paid work - semi-busy day.

Creative work - good creature work.  I think that sequence is done.

Overall - anxieties.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 5, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  No (166/82).

Paid work - not a bad day, considering.

Creative work - good work on the creature.

Overall -kind of blah.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 4, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  Yes (166/81).

Paid work - yes, slow, grinding

Creative work - some decent frames on the project

Overall - good visit with a friend, one of the few left.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 3, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  Yes (165/81).

Paid work - not a terrible day, got out of the office for a bit.

Creative work -some good stuff, experimental.

Overall - bored, frustrated, at wit's end.  Need a new thing.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 2, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -  Yes (164/81).

Paid work - holiday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff, heading into the last bit.

Overall - very bored today.  Slow day.

See you tomorrow.

Sept 1, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  Yes (163/81).

Paid work - Sunday. so no.

Creative work - some decent work, including sound.

Overall - argh yuck okay.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 31, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  Yes (162/81).  Not worried overmuch.

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff on the project.

Overall - very tired most of the day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 30, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  Yes (161/81).  Inevitable; at least it's the weekend.

Paid work - slow day, pretty dull. 

Creative work -  more work on finishing up, though the last scene has not been touched.  All there's still the audio to do.  Argh.  Some pretty decent animation stuff.

Overall -missed it by that much.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 29, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  no (160/81)

Paid work - okay day.

Creative work - more work on the project.  Wrapping up part one seems further and further away, but ironically I am getting closer.

Overall - depressed and pissed off.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 28, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  no (160/80)

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - some conceptualizing, work on larger figure.

Overall - very tired.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 27, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  no (160/79)

Paid work - long day

Creative work - some fixes and stages.

Overall - very down day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 26, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -  no (160/78)

Paid work - full day, slow.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - blah day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 25, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  yes (160/77)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - nothing much.  Some fixes here and there.  Getting tired of it, honestly.

Overall - very depressed, no energy.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 24, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  yes (159/77)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - shot some footage.  Worked on the project.  Lots of work on the project, coming along nicely, really.

Overall - felt blah and off all day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 23, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  yes (158/77) damn

Paid work - more training, very interesting, well done.

Creative work - forest sequence, etc.

Overall - I don't know, feel numb (except need to drink).  SAME?

See you tomorrow.

Aug 22, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  yes (157/77)

Paid work - more training.

Creative work - more work on the project.

Overall - meh.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 21, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  yes (156/77)

Paid work - more training.

Creative work - more file backup. But some work on "the journey" so that's good.

Overall - heavy sigh.  Heavier.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 20, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  yes (155/77)

Paid work - more training.  Kind of interesting.

Creative work - finally got the forest sequence the way I want it. Backup day.  (Overdue)

Overall - Mostly meh.  Not a lot of bright out there.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 19, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -  yes (154/77)

Paid work - training class.  Pretty good but long.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - okay.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 18, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  yes (153/77)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - more footage, figured out what was wrong with the project (technically).

Overall - very down.  At least laundry got done.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 17, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  yes (152/77)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - trying to fit the live action footage.

Overall - emptiness.  

See you tomorrow.

Aug 16, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  yes (151/77)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative Work - shot some footage, but not really usable.  Rendered "Walking Guy" finally, and "stabilized" some previously non-usable footage (we'll see).

Overall - felt pretty sick most of the day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 15, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  yes (150/77) damn again

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - another useless meeting.  Some project work.

Overall - angry all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 14, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  yes (149/77) damn

Paid work - usual day

Creative work - more grunt work.

Overall - don't know.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 13, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  yes (148/77)

Paid work - had some time off early on.  For dentistry.

Creative work - still trying to get a blank background

Overall - Heavy sigh.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 12, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -  yes (147/77)

Paid work - slow day, damned shirts arrived.  Never seen someone so animated.

Creative work - frustrating, trying to create transparent background.

Overall - everything is tiring.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 11, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  yes (146/77)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff here and there, but a wall appears.

Overall - felt ill most of the day.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 10, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  yes (145/77)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - made some tree shadows for the experiment.  Shot some footage for the same experiment, who knows if it'll work.

Overall - drinking yes should be a clue.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 9, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  no (144/77)

Paid work - some early stuff, then dull. 

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - I don't know.

See you tomorrow

Aug 8, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  yes (144/76)

Paid work - dull day.

Creative work - a bit here and there.

Overall - there are some scenarios that are too fictional.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 7, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  no (143/76)

Paid work - okay day, slow, boring.

Creative work - a little bit.

Overall - long drawn-out sigh.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 6, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  no (143/75)

Paid work - pretty slow day.

Creative work - some good detail work.

Overall - glad to be not drinking.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 5, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -  yes (143/74)

Paid work - very slow and dull day.

Creative work - some good project stuff.

Overall - I am just damned angry and depressed all the time.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 4, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  yes (142/74)

Paid work - no, Sunday

Creative work - some good stuff on the project.

Overall - things I wish.  Felt ill most of the day.  Then felt trapped.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 3, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking -  yes (141/74)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - some very good stuff on the project.

Overall - damn it to hell, why can't I--

See you tomorrow.

Aug 2, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  no (140/74)

Paid work - okay day, slow.

Creative work - face work on project, looks nice.

Overall - could be worse.

See you tomorrow.

Aug 1, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking -  yes (140/73)

Paid work - an okay day

Creative work - some good project work, kind of a useless meeting.

Overall - very depressed about everything.

See you tomorrow.

July 31, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking -  yes (139/73)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - working on face stuff--difficult.

Overall - it's all the same, and it's all bad.

See you tomorrow.

July 30, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking -  yes (138/73)

Paid work - okay day. 

Creative work -some good work, until Flash locked up.

Overall - well...at least they didn't say "Get lost."

See you tomorrow.

July 29, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking -   yes (137/73)

Paid work  - decent day, got some work done.

Creative work  - a little bit.  Some good stuff.

Overall - worried about everything.

See you tomorrow.

July 28, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking -  .yes damn it (136/73)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some project work

Overall - damn it all

See you tomorrow

July 27, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (135/73)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - good work on the new project

Overall - damn it all

See you later today.

July 26, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  yes (134/73) I thought many things...

Paid work - an okay day.  Was expecting worse.

Creative work - some good project work.

Overall - very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

July 25, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (133/73)

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - some good work on the project.

Overall - an okay day.  Money and RAID worries, though.

See you tomorrow.

July 24, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (133/72)

Paid work - ech.  oh well.

Creative work - work on the "house" part.

Overall - tired and sad.

See you tomorrow.

July 23, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (133/71)

Paid work - okay day, fairly frustrating.

Creative work - some project work.

Overall - feel pretty down.

See you tomorrow.

July 22, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (132/71)

Paid work - dull day filled with dread

Creative work - some really good work on the project.

Overall - tired of this life.

See you tomorrow.

July 21, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes  (131/71)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff on the project.

Overall - alone forever.  Okay.

See you tomorrow.

July 20, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes  (130/71)

Paid work - Sat so no.

Creative work - some interesting stuff on the project.

Overall - technology fails, but an unexpected bargain.

See you tomorrow.

July 19, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking -  yes (129/71)

Paid work - an okay day

Creative work - some interesting work to tie the new project together.
.
Overall - disappointed about yes, otherwise floating.

See you tomorrow.

July 18, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (128/71)

Paid work - an okay day, yet again.

Creative work - nothing really.  A couple of thoughts.

Overall - still very tired, worried about health.  Finally sliced up the dinner ingreds.

See you tomorrow.

July 17, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (128/70)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some good audio work, a bit of discouragement on the contest thing.

Overall - very tired.

See you tomorrow.

July 16, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (128/69)  Surprised me too.

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - got just the sound I wanted for the old project.  Some other audio work as well.

Overall - hard to say.  Seems sort of blank.

See you tomorrow.

July 15, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (128/68)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some stuff with the fun thing.

Overall - nothing and more nothing.

July 14, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.  (127/68)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - photos, work on another project, work on a worse project, so...an okay day, apart from the drinking.

Overall - decent meal.  The rest, no.

See you tomorrow.

July 13, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (126/68)

Paid work - Sat, so no

Creative work - some stuff on the project.  RAID's not quite dead, so that's good.

Overall - pretty bad.

See you later today,

July 12, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (125/68)

Paid work - an okay day

Creative work - nothing much.  RAID seems to have died.

Overall - no real point is there.

See you tomorrow.

July 11, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (124/68)

Paid work - a decent day

Creative work - some project work, writers meeting.

Overall - feel nothing--which is good.

See you tomorrow.

July 10, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (123/68).  Beyond caring, really.

Paid work - lots of driving and stuff.

Creative work - some work on the project.  Final read-through.

Overall - pretty bad day, personal-wise.

See you tomorrow.

July 9, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (122/68)

Paid work - not bad, but long day.

Creative work - polished the script, working on art and ideas for the project.

Overall - tired, sad, ill.

See you tomorrow.

July 8, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (121/68) damn it.

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - wrote a script, did some art for the project.

Overall - hey, they fixed the AC!  Best thing ever.  Well, mostly.

See you tomorrow.

July 7, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (120/68)

Paid work - Sun, so no.

Creative work - nothing much.  In fact, nothing.

Overall - the highs of yesterday crashed into the lows of today.  Tired but can't rest. 

See you tomorrow.

July 6, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (119/68)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some sound work.

Overall - had a wonderful evening.  Good fellowship.

See you later today.

July 5, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (118/68)

Paid work - dull day.

Creative work - some more work on the project.

Overall - one of the best phone conversations I have ever had.

See you tomorrow.

July 4, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (117/68)

Paid work - holiday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff on the new project.

Overall - had a great Meetup to watch the fireworks.  One of the best.  Otherwise, ill and tired and such.

See you tomorrow.

July 3, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (116/68)

Paid work - okay day.

Creative work - no.

Overall - blech.

See you tomorrow.

July 2, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (115/68)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - good audio work on project.

Overall - tired all the time, but can't rest.

See you tomorrow.

July 1, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (115/67)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - some finishing on scenes.  NASDISK having more fan troubles.

Overall - ill, tired, A/C half-fixed, blah.

See you tomorrow.

June 30, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (114/67)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some work on the project.

Overall - feel tired all the time.  Depressed, too.

See you tomorrow.

June 29, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (113/67)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - backup day.  Haven't done backups in three months!

Overall - good talk from a caring person, though I am in a tunnel.  Paid some bills, removed some possibilities.  Need to know, or go.

See you tomorrow.

June 28, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (112/67)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - thoughts on things, plus reaching out...ok.

Overall - tired all the time.

See you tomorrow.

June 27, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (111/67)

Paid work - slow half-day, too ill to stay.

Creative work - more work on the project

Overall - ill, mostly.  Really liked last night's call.

See you tomorrow.

June 26, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (111/66)

Paid work - decent day, lots of tiresome driving.

Creative work - some work on the opening scene.

Overall - wonderful phone call.  Nice preshadowing?

See you tomorrow.

June 25, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (110/66)

Paid work - okay day.

Creative work - a little work on the project.

Overall - lots of tiredness.

See you tomorrow.

June 24, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (110/65)

Paid work - slow day, but got some stuff done.

Creative work - a little bit of work.

Overall - tired, restless, anxious.

See you tomorrow.

June 23, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.  (110/64)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff on the project.

Overall - ill and tired and drinking, and alienating.  Let me off!

See you tomorrow.

June 22, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (109/64)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - more work on the project.

Overall - I don't know.  Hate drinking but drink.  Need...never mind.

See you tomorrow.

June 21, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (108/64)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - some fixes, a new start on a problem child, and sometime last week, a bit of painting.

Overall - tired, vivid dreams, storms, weird money thing.

See you tomorrow.

June 20, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (107/64)

Paid work - okay day.

Creative work - some project work, also some of that last night after posting.

Overall - really tired.

See you tomorrow.

June 19, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (107/63) yeah I was surprised too.

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - went to a writer's meeting, other than that, nothing.

Overall - feel ill.

See you tomorrow.

June 18, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (107/62)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - some nice project work.

Overall - ill from drinking, yet drinking.

See you later today.

June 17, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes. (106/62)

Paid work - lots of driving.

Creative work - whipping that atmosphere into shape.  Wish I could enjoy it.

Overall - less and less human, but more aches.

See you tomorrow.

June 16, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (105/62)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some very late work on the new project.

Overall - very tired all day, disappointing phone call, very weary.

See you tomorrow.

June 15, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (104/62)

Paid work - Sat so no.

Creative work - a bunch on the project.

Overall - great meeting with like-minded folks.  Mad about the drinking, though.

See you tomorrow.

June 14, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (103/62) damn just happened.

Paid work - long dull day.

Creative work - more work on the opening ship.  An on animation peeling.

Overall - what makes things worth it

See you tomorrow.

June 13, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (102/62)

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - felt ill and tired most of the day, thanks to last night.

See you tomorrow.

June 12. 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yep, can you blame me (102/61)

Paid work - interesting day, not bad.  Still no Boss, so that's good.

Creative work - some good writing stuff, some good work on The Intro.  Not a bad day at all for that sort of thing.

Overall - I'm older now than ever. 

See you tomorrow.

June 11, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (101/61)

Paid work - long slow day.

Creative work - starting yet again on the opening, also wrote a brief script.

Overall - not drinking helps, still tired and depressed.

See you tomorrow.

June 10, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (101/60)

Paid work - a half full day.

Creative  work - background stuff.

Overall - very tired.

See you tomorrow.

June 9, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - no (101/59)

Paid work - none.

Creative work - none.

Overall - felt tremendously ill all day, no doubt because of last night.

See you tomorrow.

June 8, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (101/58)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - evening shoot until 2:00 am, which is why this is late.

Overall - not a bad day, not really good though.

See you later today.

June 7, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no (100/58)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some work on the project, including stuff done last night after posting.

Overall - kind of neutral.

See you tomorrow.

June 6, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (100/57)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - tired a lot.

See you tomorrow.

June 5, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (100/56)

Paid work - long, irritating day.

Creative work - a bit on the new project.

Overall - body breaking down?  What ev.

See you tomorrow.

June 4, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (100/55)

Paid work - irritating day.

Creative work - nothing much.

Overall - ticked off.

See you tomorrow.

June 3, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (100/54)

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - some writing.

Overall - felt ill most of the day, bleh.

See you tomorrow.

June 2, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (100/53)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - some script stuff. NAS is having fan problems.

Overall - ill from yesterday's drinking, and ill from today's.  Why not death.

See you tomorrow.

June 1, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (99/53)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - some work on the two animation projects.  A new slant on the script, might work.

Overall - decent day, apart from the drinking.  Damn it all.  Oh well.

See you tomorrow.

May 31, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no (98/53)

Paid work - full day.

Creative work - some writing, bits of animation, nothing much.

Overall - tired and cranky.

See you tomorrow.

May 30, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (98/52)

Paid work - long day.  Big coughing fit.

Creative work - nothing.  Conceptual work, maybe.

Overall - don't feel inspired to do anything.

See you tomorrow.

May 29, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (98/51)

Paid work - shortish day, which was nice for a change.

Creative work - nothing, seem to've hit a block, though might try something after posting this.

Overall - not drinking helps a lot.

See you tomorrow.

May 28, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (98/50)

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - a bit of work on the thing.

Overall - very depressed and miserable.

See you tomorrow.

May 27, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (98/49)

Paid work - no, state holiday.

Creative work - some stuff on the futile thing.

Overall - very depressed, very down.

See you tomorrow.

May 26, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (97/49)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - a bit of work on something that probably won't.

Overall - very miserable and depressed today.

See you tomorrow.

May 25, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - no (96/49)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - a long video production, which is why this is late.

Overall - some good, some bad.

See you later today.

May 24, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes of course (96/48)

Paid work - slow day

Creative work - some good stuff, here and there.

Overall - time to access things. 

See you later today.

May 23, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (95/48).  You knew it was coming.

Paid work - full day, lots of driving.

Creative work - some good stuff on the alien ship, and some mind writing.

Overall - not meant

See you tomorrow.

May 22, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (94/48)

Creative work - working on ship/creature stuff

Paid work - long dull day

Overall - very tired.

See you tomorrow.

May 21, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no. (94/47)  Actually bought some, so this will change.

Paid work - a full day, kind of tiring.

Creative work - some ship designs for the new project.

Overall - kind of bland and dead.

See you tomorrow.

May 20, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, despair, horror (94/46)

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some work on the project.

Overall - why am I drinking again, I hate this.

See you tomorrow.

May 19, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (93/46)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some good script stuff at a meeting, some PShop work as well.

Overall - I hate drinking, I hate a great many things.

See you tomorrow.

May 18, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - sorry, but yes.  (92/46)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff, believe it or not.

Overall - hope they work it out, didn't want to go, who--who....

See you tomorrow.

May 17, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no (91/46)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - some more on the new project.

Overall - an okay day.  Not great.

See you tomorrow.

May 16, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (91/45)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - more photo sorting and some new work on the project.

Overall - not drinking helps.

See you tomorrow.

May 15, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (91/44)

Paid work - full day, mostly slow.

Creative work - nothing, still organizing photos.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

May 14, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (91/43)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - nothing, more photo sorting.

Overall - neutral. 

See you tomorrow.

May 13, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (91/42)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - nothing, organizing photos.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

May 12, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes, damn it (91/41)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - a bit of a new painting.  Organizing photos.  Blech.

Overall - feel good when I don't but compelled to do.  Everything closing in.

See you tomorrow.

May 11, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - no (90/41)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - some Flash work.  I think the second scene is done, at least without "steps."

Overall - really tired of feeling ill and tired all the time.

See you tomorrow.

May 10, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (90/40)

Paid work - a semi full day, lots in the morning, nothing after noon.

Creative work - some work on the new project.

Overall - a very good evening meeting with folks, and great dogs!

See you tomorrow.

May 9, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (89/40)

Paid work - okay, frustrating and dull, but got through it.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - many stupid things cascading at once, contributed to both Drinking and Creative Work.

See you tomorrow.

May 8, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (88/40).  Yes it took hold.

Paid work - pretty busy at the beginning, then slow.

Creative work - some Flash work, a bit of painting, and a lot of writing.  Met the film group and got some good ideas out.

Overall - got the email thing back working.  Otherwise a depressing day.

See you tomorrow.

May 7, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (87/40)

Paid work - a full day.

Creative work - some painting. 

Overall - a very frustrating day, lots of things wrong.

See you tomorrow. 

May 6, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (87/39)

Paid work - a busy day.

Creative work - nice chunk of Flash work.

Overall - seems to be stuck.

See you tomorrow.

May 5, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - no (87/38).

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some Flash work on the new project. 

Overall - a down day, but I didn't spend money at least.

See you tomorrow.

May 4, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes, damn it (87/37)

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - some good stuff done.

Overall - let's not get our hopes up.

See you tomorrow.

May 3, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes, damn it (86/37)

Paid work - yes

Creative work - some very good work on the new project

Overall - yeah, no.

See you tomorrow (it's only a bit after midnight)

May 2, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (85/37)

Paid work - a decent day.

Creative work - a new opening for the project, and a bit of fiction.

Overall - end times.

See you tomorrow.

May 1, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (84/37)

Paid work - some stuff, mostly slow.

Creative work - some good stuff on the new project.  Still thinking what to do with it.

Overall - Meh.

See you tomorrow.

April 30, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (84/36)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some stuff, but a suddenly there were questions--"Haven't I done this before" questions.  So, thinking other things.

See you tomorrow.

April 29, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (83/36)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - more work on the new thing.

Overall - depressed.

See you later today.

April 28, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (82/36)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some good actual work on the new project, and some good conceptual work as well.

Overall - I hate drinking.

See you tomorrow.

April 27, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes, (81/36)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some good work, some good ideas, new project going good.

Overall - hate the alcohol, it ruins everything.

See you tomorrow.

April 26, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (80/36)

Paid work - decent day, kind of slow, too frantic in the beginning but okay.

Creative work - I actually started this last night, but have continued today.  I seem to have a new project, and it is getting a lot of work done.

Overall - good day, not sure why drinking reared its head, but here we are.

See you tomorrow.

April 25, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (79/36)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - some ideas, nothing produced.

Overall - like yesterday, meh.

See you tomorrow.

April 24, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (79/35)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - a possible project begun.  Who knows where--or if--it will go.

Overall - not drinking helps a lot.

See you tomorrow.

April 23, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (79/34)

Paid work - okay day.

Creative work - nothing, though I get the impression something's coming.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

April 22, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (79/33)

Paid work - eh.

Creative work - some failed recording, a bit of painting.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

April 21, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (78/33) damn it again.

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - a bit of painting, coming along nicely, some PhotoShop stuff...still no direction.

Overall - did a good deed today, calling 911 for an injured man.  Funny how those nearer ignored him, but nice that those later cared.

See you tomorrow.

April 20, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (77/33)

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - some good painting.

Overall - very, very depressed and somewhat ill.

See you tomorrow.

April 19, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (76/33) damn it

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work - some good painting (some from last night) and some perhaps footage.

Overall - I don't know.

See you tomorrow.  Tomorrow should be better, at least a bit.

April 18, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (75/33)

Paid work - yes.  Dull and an irritating commute.

Creative work - not really.  Perhaps later.

Overall - not drinking definitely helps.

See you tomorrow.

April 17, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (75/32)

Paid work - long dull day.

Creative work - little bit of painting, still looking for ideas.

Overall - starting on acceptance of the inevitable.

See you tomorrow.

April 16, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (75/31)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - some PhotoShop stuff, who knows what for.

Overall - need to set a date and time.

See you tomorrow.

April 15, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, (74/31)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - some good painting work, actually.

Overall - not if but when.

See you tomorrow.

April 14, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (73/31)

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - good meeting, some ideas, some story stuff, so good.

Overall - can't see an exit.  No money.

See you tomorrow.

April 13, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (72/31)

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - no

Overall  - things

See you tomorrow.

April 12, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yep, 71-31

Paid work - yes.

 Creative work - nothing much

Overall - hard to say

See you tomorrow

April 11, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (70/31)

Paid work - meh.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - can't describe.  Got some bills paid.

See you tomorrow.

April 10, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (69/31)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - slight uptick on good luck meant bills got paid.  Bah.

See you tomorrow.

April 9, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (68/31)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - finally finished backup, looking at images now.

Overall - depressed, see no real way out.

See you tomorrow.

April 8, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (68/30)

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - nothing.

Overall - dark pall.

See you tomorrow.

April 7, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (68/29)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some footage shot, may be usable.

Overall - just tired of it all.  I'm not getting out of this.

See you tomorrow.

April 6, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (67/29)

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - a bit of painting, and some conceptualizing about the next project.

Overall - there's nothing left here.

See you tomorrow.

April 5, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (66/29)

Paid work - full day, exhausted the entire time, but done.

Creative work - some nice stuff, not front and center, but something anyway.

Overall - damn it all.

See you tomorrow.

April 4, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (65/29)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - more conceptualizing, nothing concrete.

Overall - holding pattern.

See you tomorrow.

April 3, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (65/28)

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - considering some ideas.  Nothing practical, but the backup is finally done.

Overall - eh.  Not great.

See you tomorrow.

April 2, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (65/27)

Paid work - exhausted most of the day.

Creative work - nothing, continuing a full backup.

Overall - eh.  Neither good nor bad, I guess.

See you "tomorrow."

April 1, 2019 (Mon)

No - (65/26)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - nothing really.

Overall - a fan I thought had died on my array turned out to be just resting, so that's good.  Got taxes done, so that's not a worry.  Money still a worry.

See you tomorrow.

March 31, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - no (65/25).  Wanted to.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - not really.  Cogitating.

Overall - tired of being ill.

See you tomorrow.

March 30, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (65/24)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - nothing much.  Some ideas.

Overall - nice meeting.  Felt ill most of the day.  (See drinking).

See you tomorrow.

March 29, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (64/24)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - nothing much at all.  Doing backups.

Overall - blah.

See you tomorrow.

March 28, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (63/24)

Paid work - frustrating.

Creative work - some good planet work.

Overall - I don't care any more.

See you tomorrow.

March 27, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (62/24)

Paid work - some, but mostly a sick day.

Creative work - possible new project.  Who knows.

Overall - would really like to be positive here and there.

See you tomorrow.

March 26, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - Yes (61/24)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - some, finished and published New Project.  Trying to think of something new.

Overall - very dark.

See you later in the evening.

March 25, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no. (60/24)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - finished the sea project, uploaded to see how it looks later.

Overall - less ill than before, still poor.

See you tomorrow.

March 24, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - no (60/23).  Too ill, even for me.

Paid work - no.

Creative work - mostly done with bubbles, seems crowded though.

Overall - very damned sick, very damned poor too.

See you tomorrow.

March 23, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - no (60/22).  Bought some but kept away from it.

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some water work on the new project, looks good.

Overall - spilled soda all over everything, hoping the RAID box is okay.  Damn it.  Still ill, too.

See you tomorrow.

March 22, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - Yes (60/21)

Paid work - yes, mostly.

Creative work - some bubbles

Overall - doomed.

See you tomorrow

March 21, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (59/21)

Paid work - most of a day.

Creative work - a little bit, finally happy with sound, working on bubbles.

Overall - very ill today.

See you tomorrow.

March 20. 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (59/20)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - nothing today.

Overall - numb, mostly.

See you tomorrow.

March 19, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (59/19)

Paid work - a good day.

Creative work - some nice work on the project, now looking for details.

Overall - blank.

See you tomorrow.

March 18, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no (58/19)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - some sound work.

Overall - dull, directionless.

See you tomorrow.

March 17, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (58/18)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - no.

Overall - felt ill most of the weekend.

See you tomorrow.

March 16, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (57/18)

Paid work - Sat, so no.

Creative work - some good recording, on the old equipment with the old effects.

Overall - I am a disappointment to everyone.

See you tomorrow.

March 15, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (56/18)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - no.

Overall - meh.

See you later today.

March 14, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (55/18)

Paid work - eh.

Creative work - some sound work.  Eh.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

March 13, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no, but wanted to (54/18)

Paid work - an okay day.

Creative work - nothing.  No inspiration.

Overall - kind of blank.

See you tomorrow.

March 12, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (54/17).

Paid work - long day.

Creative work - nothing.  Just not in the mood.

Overall - health worries, mostly.

See you tomorrow.

March 11, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, (54/16).

Paid work - semi slow day.

Creative work - more sound work.

Overall - acceptance?  Maybe?

See you tomorrow.

March 10, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (53/16)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - still fighting with sound.

Overall - bleh.  Meh.

See you tomorrow.

March 9, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes, 52/16.  Yes, it felt like an aberration.

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some stuff on the cat thing, a good meeting with like-minded folks.  Who knows?

Overall - a nothing day.

See you tomorrow.

March 8, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no.  51/16.

Paid work - busy, tiring day.

Creative work - nothing really, looking for a sound I thought I had.

Overall - blah.

See you tomorrow.

March 7, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no. (51/15).  Still a pathetic ratio.

Paid work - somewhat busy day.

Creative work - just a little.  Imported the video into Vegas.

Overall - loneliness and worry.

See you tomorrow.

March 6, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - YES (51/14)

Paid work - slow day.  Seems to be the pattern until I get fired.

Creative work - finished the sea cat thing, other than sound, but then had an idea.

Overall - grey, grey, grey.

See you tomorrow.

March 5, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes damn it (50/14).  Where will this end?

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - some good stuff on the catfish project.

Overall - feeling very depressed, very hopeless.

See you tomorrow.

March 4, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (49/14)

Paid work - very boring.

Creative work - some stuff on the new thing.

Overall - don't care, can't in fact.

See you tomorrow.

March 3, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (48/14)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - quite a bit done on this new, stop-gap project.  But hey, work is work.

Overall - figuring things out.

See you tomorrow.

March 2, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (47/14)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some work on the project.  Coming along, though it's kind of nothing.

Overall - blank.  Feels not as down, but just as angry, just as out.

See you tomorrow.

March 1, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no (46/14)

Paid work - pretty slow day.

Creative work - some recording experiments.  Some Blender tests.

Overall - tired, unenthused, weary.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 28, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (46/13).

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - nothing much.

Overall - well, at least there was money for a moment.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 27, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes, (45/13)

Paid work - some stuff.

Creative work - some stuff.

Overall - sliding into the end.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 26, 2017 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (44/13)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - some good animation on the new project.

Overall - dead inside.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 25, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, screw it.  (43/13)

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - some work done.

Overall - hard drive started making squealy noises, so I turned off the PC to reimage it.  Hence the lateness of this.

See you later tonight.

Feb 24, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (42/13)

Paid work - no for the usual reason.

Creative work - a bunch of stuff on the new project.

Overall - could have been worse.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 23, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (41/13)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - a little bit.

Overall - grey.

See you later tonight.

Feb 22, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (40/13)

Paid work - a full dull day.

Creative work - fish things.

Overall - numb. 

See you tomorrow

Feb 21, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (39/13)

Paid work - slow day, but okay.

Creative work - some stuff on a new project.

Overall - stretch of nothingness forever.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 20, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (38/13)

Paid work - decent day.

Creative work - some stuff on a possible project.

Overall - very depressed.

See you later tonight.

Feb 19, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes. (37/13)

Paid work - busy day, which is always good.

Creative work - some possible work on something.  Sounds vague, huh.

Overall - eh.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 18, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (36/13)

Paid work - state holiday.

Creative work - some PhotoShop stuff, but mostly out of ideas.

Overall - numb, and ill.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 17, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes 35/13

Paid work - no, holiday eve

Creative work - nothing much

Overall - the end

See you tomorrow

Feb 16, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (34/13)

Paid work - no.

Creative work - a bit on a project I'm not sure about.

Overall - blah.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 15, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.  33/13

Paid work - long dull day

Creative work - a little here and there

Overall - damn it

See you tomorrow

Feb 14, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - 32/13

Paid work - yes.

Creative work - something, not much

Overall - hate life

See  you tomorrow.

Feb 13, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - of course (31/13)

Paid work - couldn't due to family crap.

Creative work - some stuff on this possible project.

Overall - all dead.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 12, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no (30/13)

Paid work - some.

Creative work - none.

Overall - have to do hospital duty, hence the early post.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 11, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes (30/12)

Paid work - actually did some work.

Creative work - possible new project, some work done.

Overall - just when you think....

See you later tonight.

Feb 10, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (29/12)

Paid work - no, Sunday.

Creative work - started on a possible new project.  Testing.  Who knows.

Overall - things are.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 9, 2019 (sat)

Drinking - yes.  (28/12).  It's hard to fight that demon when he has so many friends.

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - nothing.  Stuck trying to create.

Overall - not too bad.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 8, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no. (27/12)

Paid work - busy, tiring day.

Creative work - bit of tweaking on the snowman thing. 

Overall - tired, not looking forward. but otherwise neutral.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 7, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no (27/11)

Paid work - irritating day.  No sense of planning or logistics.

Creative work - nothing as of now.  Exhausted.  Perhaps later, though I still have no ideas.

Overall - frustrated.  But pleased by one development.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 6, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no (27/10)

Paid work - another long dull day.  A bit worrying.

Creative work - more training, some work on the Maya thing I started.

Overall - neutral but depressing.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 5, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no. 27/9

Paid work - another excruciating day.

Creative work - nothing really.  Update:  built a snowman and a partial scene in Maya, not following a lesson.  It's pretty good but I still have learning to do.

Overall - hard to feel anything other than dread and despair.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 4, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - no. 27/8

Paid work - excruciating slow day.

Creative work - some reading, failed Maya practice.

Overall - not feeling good about anything.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 3, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yup. 27/7

Paid work - Sunday so no.

Creative work - more Maya exercises.

Overall - alone, uncertain, resources dwindling.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 2, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yup. 26/7

Paid work - Saturday, so no.  Might be changing.

Creative work - a bit of painting, more reading about Maya.

Overall - doesn't seem to be a way forward.

See you tomorrow.

Feb 1, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes. 25/7.

Paid work - discouraging day at the new place.  Thirty more miles.  Need to get my resume out there, but have no hope.

Creative work - some painting, some online courses.  Nothing significant.

Overall - everything slides downward.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 31, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (24/7)

Paid work - a bit here and there.

Creative work - some more Maya training, and a bit of painting.

Overall - dark.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 30, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes (23/7)

Paid work - slow day.

Creative work - some more Maya tutorial, a bit of painting.

Overall - things seem to be coming to an end everywhere.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 29, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes (22/7)

Paid work - a better day.  Not good, but better.  I need to die soon.

Creative work - more steps in the Maya thing, otherwise nothing.

Overall - I do not know why I am still here.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 28, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yup.  (21/7)

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - more on the Maya exercise, some prelim things that may, and probably will, come to naught.

Overall - very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 27, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes (20/7)

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - a bit of painting, and attempts to come up with a new project.

Overall - very down, very depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 26, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes (19/7)

Paid work - Saturday, so no.

Creative work - monthly backup, so no.  And no ideas, neither!

Overall - again, just want it to be over.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 25, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes (18/7)

Paid work - an OK day.

Creative work - tried a few things, none of them worked.

Overall - some good today.  Narrow horizons.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 24, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes (17/7)

Paid work - an okay day.  Felt less frozen out, but too much driving.

Creative work - not much, started a Maya lesson, maybe that will click in finally.

Overall - jaw feels better, tinnitus is more and more irritating.  Nothing positive today, but nothing all that bad.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 23, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - it's becoming a very toxic place to be.

Creative work - posted the project and did a bit of painting.

Overall - it would be nice if things were good, but they aren't.  Nice feedback from the dental surgery folks.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 22, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a full day.  Mostly irritating.

Creative work - nothing much.  Some creature ideas.  Still waiting for upload to finish.  (But better than with the old modem.)

Overall - hard to say.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 21, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work - got a good finish to the project and started a reupload.

Overall - bought a new modem, which might help in the future.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 20, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work -  a little painting, otherwise waiting for YouTube for 2 days.

Overall - bad and terrible.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 19, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Sat, so no.  Might have to modify this.

Creative work - finished, I think, the new project.  And did some painting.  Both  are good.

Overall - don't ask.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 18, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - slow day, not very good.

Creative work - some re-dos on the ending.  Some painting, pretty good.

Overall - down, down, down.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 17, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - yes, damn it all to hell.

Paid work - yes, slow, but with a bonus.

Creative work - some stuff going toward the end.  Overall good, but...lacks closure.

Overall - very depressed.  Good things are happening, yes.  But depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 16, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - since this is becoming a thing soon, yes.

Creative work - some good stuff, possibly project end.

Overall - I drink too much.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 15, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - a bit.

Creative work - might have solved a couple of problems.

Overall - angry and depressed.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 14, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes,

Paid work - slow day, with some work done.

Creative work - nothing much, some trims, sound work attempted with no results.

Overall- don't ask.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 13, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Sunday, so no.

Creative work - some good stuff, still don't know about an ending.  Argh.

Overall: See you tomorrow.

Jan 12, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - no.

Creative work - some stuff.

Overall - you are all great and I love you.

See you tomorrow-ish.

Jan 11, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes, though there was a lot of reluctance.  Still, a yes is a yes.

Paid work - dead man coming through.

Creative work - quite a lot done for the new project, but still not an organic ending.

Overall - watching "Eternal Sunshine" whose message seems to be "it's stupid to care."

See you tomorrow.

Jan 10, 2019 (Thurs)

Drinking - no, but tempted.

Paid work - another slow day, with bad news on top.  Oh well, should've expected it.

Creative work - some new directions worked on.

Overall - the bad outweighs the good, although at least there's been good here and there.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 9, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - slow, slow day.

Creative work - a lot of sound work, and a bit of animation.

Overall - another very good thing happened, so thank you for that.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 8, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - very slow day.

Creative work - more audio work, some animation.

Overall - another good thing happened.  Mostly the day was eh, though.

See you tomorrow.  (Yes, it's after midnight.  I forgot.)

Jan 7, 2019 (Mon)

Drinking - yes, but it seems strangely ineffective.  Please either be one thing or the other.

Paid work - full day, though a slow one.

Creative work - lots of sound work done, and some work on what is close to the end of the story.

Overall - I am very depressed and very down and would like all this crap to end soon, thank you.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 6, 2019 (Sun)

Drinking - yes.

Paid work - Sunday, so  no.

Creative work - some good audio work.  Finally!

Overall - even the...no, can't go on.  Too much of a puppet.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 5, 2019 (Sat)

Drinking - yes

Paid work - Saturday so no.

Creative work - bits

Overall - damn it

 See you tomorrow

Jan 4, 2019 (Fri)

Drinking - yes.  Before you say anything--

Paid work - busy, irritating day.

Creative work - fixed the fracture issue, working on the rest.

Overall - it's weird how some few folks can make you feel there's hope.  But hope is a non operative word.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 3, 2018 (Wed)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - a slow day.

Creative work - some good work on the project.  Getting into shape, at least preliminarily.  Haven't even started on sound.

Overall - every now and then, people can amaze you, in a good way.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 2, 2019 (Wed)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - long, tiring day.  Lot of driving.

Creative work - trying to work out some issues.

Overall - I really can't let hope rear its head.  Good dinner with friend.

See you tomorrow.

Jan 1, 2019 (Tues)

Drinking - no.

Paid work - state holiday, so no.

Creative work - a couple of scenes completed.

Overall - worry, anxiety.  I really don't see how this state ends well.

See you tomorrow.